Hey everyone I hope you all are having a good day so far.
So I’m jumping right in with this one.
A few months back I did a thing where I had to look in the mirror and talk to myself.
Yes…talk to myself…
The words we use are so important, they can either tear you down or build you up. There’s something about our words that hold so much weight, we can literally bring light into someone else’s day or we can bring darkness and death.
It’s so crazy to think about, our tongue is the tiniest part of the body, yet no one can tame it. There’s a verse in the Bible that talks about this exact thing.
“Likewise, the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole body, sets the whole course of one’s life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.”
James 3:5-6 NIV
So the basically our mouths hold power, that’s why we need to be careful what we say about others and what we say to others and also about what we say to ourselves.
I could remember for the longest time speaking so much death over myself, so much self-loathing, so much self-pity. I often called myself an ‘idiot’ to get other people to tell me I wasn’t an idiot, pretty messed up right…
Yet all that attention seeking didn’t do a whole lot for me, yeah sure it felt good to be told I wasn’t an idiot or whatever name I felt like hurling at my self esteem. I only craved that more and more until I realized how terrible it actually was.
So talking to myself in the mirror, positive affirmations have actually helped, when you say positive things to yourself, you don’t feel as heavy on the inside.
I’m no expert in this, and it’s been awhile since I’ve last put this into practice, I need to do this more often, and I’m saying this to myself as much as I’m saying this for you all.
Stay awesome y’all
What’s the biggest takeaway that I’ve learned when it comes to social media and validation?
I’ve learned that social media will never be able to fix me. It won’t bring me ultimate joy, and it definitely won’t validate me as a person.
For so long I’ve always struggled with seeking validation, how I would go about it would be very sneaky, I would put myself down or tell others my songs or poetry isn’t that good compared to others.
Another thing is I’ve posting A LOT as of late, like 3 to maybe 4 posts a day. This is currently something I’ve realized about me…well really I’ve noticed this for awhile just really didn’t want to admit to myself I actually might be an Instagram addict.
In short, my idol is Instagram…
No shocker there…
I think in my case I feel like I fall under the FOMO category, fear of missing out. I’ve had this really gnarly habit of checking Instagram whenever I’m bored, and when one is bored, dangerous habits can take form and then take over your life.
Someone I interact with on Instagram said that we need to be willing to check in with ourselves before going to the screens, and I too believe that as well, its a matter of putting that into practice that makes it hard.
I heard this song from a band called ‘The Boxer Rebellion’ they have a song called “Love Yourself” and social media isn’t gonna make us love ourselves any more or any less.
Yes social media can be a great thing, in moderation, but it can unfortunately be like a drug if we aren’t careful.
Hey beautiful people, I hope you all are doing well.
So as some of you know, I write, I write songs, I write poems, and for a couple years I had another blog called ‘APLTF’ (A Poet Learning to Forgive.) I decommissioned that blog because I was writing everyday but after awhile I couldn’t come up with anything.
I have kind of loved ,and hated writing. I hate having to write if I have to, I hate having deadlines on when something should come out, I don’t like the pressure I feel that I NEED to put out something. As I’ve said before I hate forced creativity.
I just feel its way too inauthentic if I try to get something out there or force it. Its not sincere, and for a long time I feel I’ve been in a place or season where I’ve found myself force creating songs, poems etc for creativity’s sake. For from the heart.
Its a terrifying thought for me…
Writing is a struggle, its hard to explain the things I want to get across, its a struggle, yet I enjoy the struggle, the uphill battle.
Writing is a beautiful struggle…
What I’m currently learning as a creative and as a person that I NEED, ABSOLUTELY NEED to be patient in the process.