Social Media & Validation

What’s the biggest takeaway that I’ve learned when it comes to social media and validation?

I’ve learned that social media will never be able to fix me. It won’t bring me ultimate joy, and it definitely won’t validate me as a person.

For so long I’ve always struggled with seeking validation, how I would go about it would be very sneaky, I would put myself down or tell others my songs or poetry isn’t that good compared to others.

Another thing is I’ve posting A LOT as of late, like 3 to maybe 4 posts a day. This is currently something I’ve realized about me…well really I’ve noticed this for awhile just really didn’t want to admit to myself I actually might be an Instagram addict.

In short, my idol is Instagram…

No shocker there…

I think in my case I feel like I fall under the FOMO category, fear of missing out. I’ve had this really gnarly habit of checking Instagram whenever I’m bored, and when one is bored, dangerous habits can take form and then take over your life.

Someone I interact with on Instagram said that we need to be willing to check in with ourselves before going to the screens, and I too believe that as well, its a matter of putting that into practice that makes it hard.

I heard this song from a band called ‘The Boxer Rebellion’ they have a song called “Love Yourself” and social media isn’t gonna make us love ourselves any more or any less.

Yes social media can be a great thing, in moderation, but it can unfortunately be like a drug if we aren’t careful.

‘When I Die, Put My Money in The Grave’

Hey everyone, this post is gonna be a little different than my normal posts. I don’t know why but today I was listening to this song by a rap artist named ‘Drake.’

He has a song called ‘Money in the Grave’ and for some reason just one line in that song had got me thinking.

“When I die put my money in the grave”

The line had me thinking “wait, you can’t take the money with you when you die, so why would want to buried with money.

Someone might think I’m putting too much thought into this and maybe you’re right, but really think about it, why would want to buried with something that isn’t gonna matter in the end, in the grand scheme of things, everything on this planet is temporary and will one day go away.

Its a depressing thought to think about sometimes but it really gets us as people to think about what really matters in this life. Jesus says to not store up treasures for ourselves here on earth but to store up treasure for ourselves in heaven where no rust or moth destroy nor thieves can steal.

I’m not saying don’t have money, shoot, bank roll for all I care. I’m saying that that stuff is temporary and we can’t take it with us once we’ve passed on. We need to focus on the things that really matter rather than be so stuck on things that only bring temporary peace. I’m writing this for myself as much as I am for the next person.

Stay awesome,

Austin Jenkins


Writing is a Beautiful Struggle

Hey beautiful people, I hope you all are doing well.

So as some of you know, I write, I write songs, I write poems, and for a couple years I had another blog called ‘APLTF’ (A Poet Learning to Forgive.) I decommissioned that blog because I was writing everyday but after awhile I couldn’t come up with anything.

I have kind of loved ,and hated writing. I hate having to write if I have to, I hate having deadlines on when something should come out, I don’t like the pressure I feel that I NEED to put out something. As I’ve said before I hate forced creativity.

I just feel its way too inauthentic if I try to get something out there or force it. Its not sincere, and for a long time I feel I’ve been in a place or season where I’ve found myself force creating songs, poems etc for creativity’s sake. For from the heart.

Its a terrifying thought for me…

Writing is a struggle, its hard to explain the things I want to get across, its a struggle, yet I enjoy the struggle, the uphill battle.

Writing is a beautiful struggle…

What I’m currently learning as a creative and as a person that I NEED, ABSOLUTELY NEED to be patient in the process.