Yes that’s exactly what it says, I’m tired of fake people.
I had this realization months ago and this was something I never understood until now. Not everyone that is a Christian is going to be your friend or going to want to connect with you.
That was something I should have always known I guess..
Have you ever made plans to meet up with a friend and then life happens or something out of your control happens and they cancel on you, that happens, its life.
Now has someone made up something to get out of hanging out with you, or has someone just straight up ghosted you for months on end with no explanation at all?
The latter has happened to me, and I’m not okay with that and I’m also not okay feeling like I have to initiate when people want to meet up or hang. If you want to hang out with someone, wouldn’t you want to coordinate with that person?
I’m just in a season of life where I believe you don’t know someone until you really know them. The longer you’re around someone, people’s true colors come out and you see who they really are.
I’m tired of fake friends, I’m tired of people just straight up ghosting me with no explanation, I’m just tired, if you don’t want to hang out, you tell them you don’t want to hang out, you don’t ghost them, that’s disrespectful.
If people do that in your life, just get rid of them, your life will be better off without them.
Hey everyone, this post is gonna be a little different than my normal posts. I don’t know why but today I was listening to this song by a rap artist named ‘Drake.’
He has a song called ‘Money in the Grave’ and for some reason just one line in that song had got me thinking.
“When I die put my money in the grave”
The line had me thinking “wait, you can’t take the money with you when you die, so why would want to buried with money.
Someone might think I’m putting too much thought into this and maybe you’re right, but really think about it, why would want to buried with something that isn’t gonna matter in the end, in the grand scheme of things, everything on this planet is temporary and will one day go away.
Its a depressing thought to think about sometimes but it really gets us as people to think about what really matters in this life. Jesus says to not store up treasures for ourselves here on earth but to store up treasure for ourselves in heaven where no rust or moth destroy nor thieves can steal.
I’m not saying don’t have money, shoot, bank roll for all I care. I’m saying that that stuff is temporary and we can’t take it with us once we’ve passed on. We need to focus on the things that really matter rather than be so stuck on things that only bring temporary peace. I’m writing this for myself as much as I am for the next person.
Hey beautiful people, I hope you all are doing well.
So as some of you know, I write, I write songs, I write poems, and for a couple years I had another blog called ‘APLTF’ (A Poet Learning to Forgive.) I decommissioned that blog because I was writing everyday but after awhile I couldn’t come up with anything.
I have kind of loved ,and hated writing. I hate having to write if I have to, I hate having deadlines on when something should come out, I don’t like the pressure I feel that I NEED to put out something. As I’ve said before I hate forced creativity.
I just feel its way too inauthentic if I try to get something out there or force it. Its not sincere, and for a long time I feel I’ve been in a place or season where I’ve found myself force creating songs, poems etc for creativity’s sake. For from the heart.
Its a terrifying thought for me…
Writing is a struggle, its hard to explain the things I want to get across, its a struggle, yet I enjoy the struggle, the uphill battle.
Writing is a beautiful struggle…
What I’m currently learning as a creative and as a person that I NEED, ABSOLUTELY NEED to be patient in the process.
Hey everyone, I hope you all are having a good week so far.
I want to discuss something I haven’t talked about in my previous blog sites.
I get terrifying nightmares, and I’ve dealt with these “dark dreams” for most of my life. I also call them “demonic dreams.”
I’ve come to realize that these dreams are based on fear and kill my confidence. Sometimes I wonder if its just my imagination acting up, that also could be a thing.
Something I’ve learned is that as scary as these dreams get, I need to learn that nothing can happen to me, the demonic dreams can’t cause any harm to me. I also need to fight the thoughts I have with truth, speak life where there is no life, reading the Word.
My name is Austin Jenkins and this is my new blog site ‘Openhandspoetry.’
I can’t tell you what ‘Openhandspoetry’ means yet cuz honestly I don’t know what it means to me. All I really know is I really missed writing…like a lot.
I think the last time I had a blog I was writing almost everyday. Inspiration was on my side, I did my best to be honest in my posts about where I was, how I was feeling, yet also encourage myself and those who read my blog posts.
My problem was I was writing so much and so often that I ran out of things to talk about and in turn had me stuck. I tried to get myself unstuck by trying to come up with a topic and after that it just became what I like to call ‘forced creativity.’
Any creative knows that when you try to force create a piece of art, its not going to come out the way you want it or need it too. That’s what I did, so eventually I just put my blogging to rest.
I just need to take it easy, step back, but mostly take breaks and commit. That’s seems to be my problem is committment when working on something. Inspiration will come when it comes but sometimes you gotta work a bit before something good hits you. That’s just how the creative process sometimes works.